everything you ever wanted-part two

I decided I was going to die one day. Yeah, I know. It was a newsflash to me too, dahlin. But once I accepted the undeniable fact that no matter what, I would die eventually, I came to peace with myself. I’m always puzzled at non-believers. As in, if you don’t believe in anything whatsoever then what is holding you back from living your life to the fullest. You shouldn’t have any regards to morals or ethics or how you are living your life because once it ends, that’s it for you. Right? That’s if you don’t believe. In anything. On the other hand, if you believe that what are you is to be continued. That once you leave this life, crossing over to the unknown, that there is more for you. Then what are you taking with you? Obviously not anything material or physical. So what are you willing to take with you? Are you leaving people and situations with a clean slate so you can receive what awaits you empty handed? Or are you carrying guilt, resentment, regret, shame etc with you? Do you live each day so you can go to sleep in good conscience with yourself? Every person you encounter, have you left them in peace and with kindness or have you caused an uproar, no matter how minimal, that requires resolution for either or both parties involved? Anyone who knows me personally also knows how reactive I can be. I’m not preaching here, it’s a daily challenge, depending on the flow of the day, how peaceful I leave people. Oddly enough the challenge is greater for me with people with whom I have a longstanding and/or deep involvement with. But that’s how I found my peace. As the situations arise where I used to blow my fuse, getting agitated, angry, lashing out, I simply stop. Nope, not taking that with me. Anymore.