Weltschmerz

Melancholy. Also known as Weltschmerz. The deep feeling of sorrow about the inadequacy of this world. She met me at the door of this world. Welcoming me as if she had been waiting a long time for me to arrive. And she has never left me. At first confused at her presence, not willing to let her be. As I became much more cognizant of her presence I began fighting her every step of the way. Fiery spirit of mine, this happy go lucky girl just didn’t know how to embrace such a delicate presence. She fought me just as fiercely in all her frailty. It took her almost taking me over to accept her and embrace her the same way she embraced me on my arrival into this world. Now she allows me to see all the blessings my life is full of. I have received many gifts I neither asked for nor ever knew I needed. She comes to see me now whenever she feels like it. And we greet each other gently, fully aware of the complete rawness lying underneath it all. I honor her presence until it’s time for her departure. She never stays long now, now that she knows that she is part of me as I am part of her.