End of the road

I can’t even quite put my finger on it. I’m not sure when or how it started. It was such a culmination of my entire life that stood in front of me like an unsurmountable mountain. Breaking me down to the point that I finally stopped. The gears of my auto drive ground their final turns. Initially I gave credit to one or another person who shook me to the core of my being. Causing me to look at myself with such an uproar of “ Who are you and what are you doing to yourself?”. But as time has passed, I can honestly say that I blinded myself to everything placed in my way to make me question all the choices in my life. For example, by the nature given to me by the Universe ( you may call it anything you wish, i.e. how God made you, genetics. It’s all in the grand design of our creator) I prefer an organized environment, work well in quiet solitude to express myself artistically AND I can’t deal with the harsh realities of life. My soul is not designed for that. Yet I managed to succeed in a health care profession that is anything but ( the aforementioned ). And not just any health care profession, I specialized in emergency care and became extremely good at it. Anyone familiar with emergency anything completely understands that by my nature I have absolutely no place in that type of business. I paid a high prize for doing what I did. But there is no taking back the valuable lessons I learned. Not just about life. Much more about myself. It’s like coming off a paved way into the underbrush of my life, struggling through the thicket, to cut the vines of my karma. Sometimes with not even a machete to help me through. Until I reached the clearing. The clearing of my soul. The choices that kept me tangled up in old karma. I am standing here at the dominion of my purpose, looking ahead at a future that was always given to me by my birthright. Leaving behind anything that has been a burden (and not for me to carry) all my life. Letting Spirit take over to guide me through to the next level.

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