The bearing of gifts and other things that break your heart

I'm not sure how things have worked out for others in the relational department. My personal experience has been such an in-depth course about myself. Everything I didn’t know, and moreover didn’t want to know, about myself has been more or less gracefully shown to me through my relationships ( ANY relationship, not just intimate ones).

I have always wanted people to be something as I entered into relationship with them. But then, don’t we ALL have that. That want for someone else to (ful)fill something that only we ourselves can (ful)fill ourselves. Now that I comprehend that on an unchangeable level, meaning I will not be able to ever go back to relating to others through my old ways, I can truly appreciate the bearing of gifts each soul was sent to bring me.

Incredible gifts of Self. Self-love. Self-forgiveness. Self-knowing. Self-compassion.

With each breaking of my heart the gift was shown to me.

Not easy. I am obviously one of those people who need hands-on experience to comprehend any teaching. I could go into minor details here about each lesson, or how each gift was wrapped in such a special way that I was completely surprised each time I opened it. Since I could have never foreseen the purpose of my relational encounters.

Simply because my expectations of what I wanted each relationship to be or what I wanted out of each particular relationship was completely NOT what God had in mind for me. My point is that if you allow yourself to look at any relationship as a relationship with yourself, you will recognize the purpose for each one of them and learn to appreciate the reasons for them. Even when they are not what you had in mind for yourself. Each is brought to you for your spirit to remember.