To Infinity and beyond

All my life, from a young age, I have been made aware of my irresponsible behavior. My rash decisions. Spur of the moment choices serving as reminders that I am alive. So I worked hard to become responsible. It wasn’t actually that hard. Becoming established to make a do-able living. I got brains to learn, a body to work, really, there’s not much more you need to make a living. But to make a life…

It takes more than that. So to this day I can be looked at as irresponsible. For anyone who has so much as a solid foot on the ground. Most definitely by the average standard of people who look at nothing but their temporary existence. Even the ones who claim to do things based on concerns about how well off they will leave their loved ones. We are not in charge of what lessons others have come here to receive. No matter how well meaning, it’s not in our control, even when we are still alive.

But I have at last become responsible for my well-being. Taking care of what nourishes and sustains me beyond this brief visit on planet Earth. As I dearly love all my experiences, the tangible joys this body and this life brings, I am now holding myself fully accountable to the eternal fall out of every choice I make. So as foolish as my choices seem to someone who has no clue as to what I am talking about, it all makes perfect sense to me and the executive decision maker of my bodily form. My eternal spirit.