The number you are trying to reach is no longer in service

I hurt people before. Not vindictively. Not spitefully. Much more as part of a defense mechanism that was based on fear. Nevertheless, the pain inflicted on others was just as severe, if not worse, than if I had done it out of cruelty. And amazingly, I hurt myself even more than them.

It was one of the most unexpected wake up calls of my Life. It was served to me the same way I had given it out. No shocker there. Once you get intimate with living, you learn how to tread gently.

What happened was, that I got myself tangled up with someone in such a manner, that I felt I wouldn’t be who I am without that person in my life. It was a rather painful process to go through all the levels of realizations it took to know, truly know, that I am. No matter what is. As everything is, so am I. All the time. Open your eyes to that and Life will embrace you with such tenderness.

Anyways, said person had no inclination to allow me to be part of their life, no matter how small it would have been [that’s another blog in itself, don’t play the stage hand to someone else’s life, ever, there’s grandeur waiting for you if you allow real life to happen]. After weeks of failed attempts to stay in touch, endless efforts from me to remain connected, it hit me like a ton of bricks. There were people I had cut off just as callously, who had stopped their efforts, yet were waiting on me nevertheless. Not because they were not who they are without me in their life. No, much more uncomplicated than that. They were waiting for my return because they had always loved me, no matter the ups and downs, and when we were created, there was this special place build in, that would always hold a space for me. How lovely is that?

We all have people that come with that build in space for us. We just have to be able to recognize them and once we do, make that effort to honor the place they hold for us by holding the same place for them.

And yes, yes I did pick up the phone and I dialed the right numbers this time. The numbers of the people who have been waiting for me to reach out and be in their life.

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