Face to Soul

I currently make one third of the income I used to make at what could be considered the “height” of my career almost nine years ago. The Great Organizing Principle who sent me here had had enough of my bumbling around and struck me down with its almighty power. Or as C. G. Jung put it: “Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate.”

In writing this blog, I am just now realizing how long it’s been already that my course has been redirected, yet I am barely lifting up my foot to initiate the first step into new adventures. Chosen adventures.

After the initial blow nine years ago, I scrambled to keep my life together. To keep the illusion going. As I am sure the majority of us would. As much as it is written and gloried about, it is not as simple as some people make it want to look, to take on new directions for one’s life, especially if other lives depend on it. So here I am, between the people who are venturing out on a solid life path that they believe in so firmly, as I once did. Seemingly yesterday I believed and walked that same path, yet it managed to take up half my life before I stumbled across my wake up calls, throwing me off course and holding me accountable to laying my own path with conscious choices. And between the other people who know exactly how stuck they are with the choices they made but either do not have the drive or the courage to make the changes it takes to put them on the course they came here for. Naturally there still remains the solid majority who choose to stay blind to their “fate”.

With that loss of income, one would assume that I would be “struggling”, or have difficulties managing my life. But it is rather the opposite. I have gained the freedom to make choices that include my well being, always. I literally have come to making sure that I am okay with every choice I make, before I make it. Eliminating all the resentment and bitterness that comes with saying yes to something when I really want to say no. With every no I say to something that goes against my being, I am saying yes to myself. And with every no I say, it gets easier and easier to stick to my guns, to stay conscious in the choices I make, therefore designing the path to my life only my Soul knows.