Curtain call

"He's dead." She said. "Mmh", was my reply. She looked at me, standing off on the side. Knowing if she stood face to face would imply confrontation. "I'll have to take time off to get his things." She almost muttered it under her breath. "That's one hell of a ride for sure." I replied, with that look on my face if the effort it took would be really worth it. "Everyone has to deal with the blows of life in their own way" I thought to myself. She began to rattle of all the details of the planned trip. Trying to quench the silence of the words unspoken between her and I. I knew she wanted me to say "sorry for your loss", or something along that line. But she knew better. She knew me better than to ask me for something she wasn't prepared to face. She stood still, the way she did around me. Always gauging her position, always trying to see where she actually stood with me. As animated as she was, she kept herself in check around me. To lose her footing would mean losing hard earned respect. She hadn't quite learned that people only give you what they want to give you. She shuffled her feet a bit. I looked at her "Seems like you got it handled." She sighed "Yes, I just hate taking all this time to settle his estate." I slightly shook my head. She noticed it too. "Mmh", is all I said again. She still didn't get what she wanted out of me. A blessing for her actions. It was too late for that, now that he was dead. They say grief is love unable to express itself. Do I ever know about that. I just couldn't agree with the handling of the belongings of the deceased, vain efforts of sentimentality, futile attempts to hold on to the chance of being part in someone's life. When all efforts should be made while they are living. And if we are unable to cope with who they are, there are ways to express our love without getting pulled under by whatever it is we are unable to handle. Most people grief what they wanted the other person to be. Yet we are given ample opportunities to appreciate them for who they are and the roles they play in our life. ~•~•~•~•~• a beautiful milieu Image darkolabor https://www.instagram.com/darkolabor/