Absently present

my mother put me off to the side there were chores to be done after all such as illusions to escape it's a strange thing to run straight towards what one tries to hide from I didn't realize the damage done ..by abandonment I went right along with wanting to be part of a norm that doesn't exist until my first bubble burst it didn't take long for my beliefs to fall victim to the rapid fire succession of realizations that reality is not at all what my mind made it out to be I began to see outside of myself and for the first time I felt the pain and suffering my mother must have been in I grieved her losses and mine I grieved what never was and what could never be the unrelenting infantile need for security finally lost its grip on me ..I never knew letting go of what I wanted most would give me everything I need

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a beautiful milieu 

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